Spark In The Dark

Bonsoir readers. This entry is brought to you with the glorious, inspiring, all-encompassing sounds of JS Bach’s Toccata and Fugue in D minor filling my room at a level that might possibly annoy my neighbours. What a fantastic piece of music, it’s the first track on a pretty cool album I found today entitled Halloween - Which is a collection of atmospheric, dark, pieces of music by various composers. It feels a little peculiar playing something that feels distinctly nocturnal when the sun is still shining outside!

Not that a little thing like that has diminished its effect. I put it on as background noise to help me concentrate, but I am spending more time actively listening to that, than typing this. It’s pretty impressive; like a gothic fantasia meets the nutcracker prince (who is also going through a ‘goth stage’) meets Tim Burton’s imagination, meets the musical score to Harry Potter, meets Nightwish. Magnifico! The more enthralled I allow myself to become, the happier my mood.

I had planned on this entry being a weekend recap and a review of Nausea by Jean Paul Sartre, which I finished the other day. But this album has really ignited my imagination. As I sat back in my chair, closed my eyes and allowed myself to drift, to become consumed by a growing sense of a familiar darkness, I found myself in a place I haven’t visited for some weeks, perhaps in months. My thoughts arranged themselves in an orderly queue, and the words flowed with ease. An evasive ending to a promising short I had practically given up on, presented itself; and all but jumped out of my head on to the page.

Sleep will not come to me tonight, I have already conceded as much. But if this surge of creativity holds up then I will excuse myself this one slip. I have after all fallen back into a ‘normal’ sleeping pattern, which is having nothing but good effects. It has given me the energy to start phase two of my life-readjustment. Phase one began in January and saw me systematically cut out anything (and anyone) in my life that was having more of a negative effect on me than a positive one, to coincide with a new(ish) job and a new outlook in life.

It was a sudden and quite drastic move (not so much in the case of people, I’m not that rude). But it was one that I felt I had no choice but to take, if I wanted to set my life back on a path that was in my control. It has been successful, less stress; fewer distractions and more free time have really allowed me to focus on the more essential aspects of my life. I did lose my way recently, as I have documented, but that has passed and so into the second phase - The final battle with procrastination

I feel like David going up against Goliath, such is my tendency to procrastinate. Although progress is being to be made, I have cut down the amount of time I spend online in the evenings; my fascination with facebook has waned, the Xbox hasn’t been switched on for at least four days. Well, except to watch family guy whilst eating dinner – but that doesn’t count! It cannot be coincidence that I am reading a lot more, and spending more time exercising. But that’s only a good thing.

Speaking of good things – I have a surge of creativity to aim at my other writing. So I bid thee farewell, dear reader.