Feel Good Hit of the Summer

Bonsoir, mes plus chers lecteurs. My last entry drew to a close with comments on some little adventures I had begun planning for this year.

I’m fortunate to have a whole six weeks (plus bank holidays) paid leave this year, score! So have I have decided that after a few trips to the Lake District, I’m off to Italy for a little island hopping; and trekking over some volcanoes (including Mt Etna), As well as either a weeks climbing in the Alps, or more of an easy sighting week trekking along the Amalfi Coast and up Mt Vesuvius.

Hopefully I’ll get a trip to Romania in the later half of the year, but currently I like the idea of spending some time in Morocco and climbing in the Atlas Mountains. I’ll make a decision on those two after speaking to my fellow adventurers again next week.

I love these little trips, they always motivate to train harder; and help keep my mood up. Something I am currently finding quite hard, despite repeating my little news year’s resolution mantra (See UNO) most mornings to myself, like a crazy man. The reasons for that are those that I have mention in some of my most recent entries, the foremost, over the last two days at least, has been work. I have been quite happy, generally, having moved departments at the beginning of the year. I have taken to my new role with great enthusiasm, and have worked really hard in both building my knowledge of my new role, and building good relationship with my new colleagues. From all accounts I have apparently exceed expectations, the knowledge of which has only spurred me on further. Until yesterday, when I learn that there is a very good chance I will be recalled to my old role, in my old department – because they now realise my skills would be of good use there.

Fucking fantastic, how is that for irony? I stick at a job I hate for over a year because the benefits are good enough to prevent me leaving, but that are not enough to stop me hating what I did. I had no motivation other than to do the bare minimum, collect my paycheque and ignore everything else involved with the company.

I was a disillusioned employee that hated my job, and was motivated only to do the bare minimum, cared for nothing other than getting my pay check (the benefits were just good enough to keep my from quitting), I hardly spoke to those I worked with; because I was generally pissed off – Then, I am asked to lend a hand (permanently) to another department who have just adopted new it systems and working practices, I agree because I don’t care.

But after only a few days I became almost a model employee. I loved the new challenge, worked as hard as I could; sough out knowledge to help me improve, gave up parts of my evenings and weekends to help the department meet its goals. I did everything that was asked of me, and more; willingly – and now, three months on, it looks as though because of my performance, and experienced, they want to put me back. I am so annoyed right now, I have expressed as much to my superiors; in both departments (which went down well in the old one) so we’ll see what happens. I have a few days off, so I’ll not be certain of my future until next Thursday. Right now I am pretty certain if they insist on sending me back, I’ll be handing in my notice – but that is a little rash. I need to sit down and weigh everything up before acting.

Phew, sorry to throw that one in your face readers. I bet you weren’t expecting that when you began reading! I wans't expecting it when I began writing. If it is any consolation, I do feel better for getting that out.